Current mood: pensive
Music playing: John Mayer Where The Light Is
"The art of love... is largely the art of persistence." -Albert Ellis (psychologist)
Struck with the dilemma of what to do now, I found myself pondering my options: just keep doing what you're doing; step it up a notch; take a chance and say something; or... play hard to get... I've never been very good at the whole "hard to get" game cause the fact of the matter is, the majority of the time I don't mind being caught. I don't understand why there must be game playing involved in courtship. It would seem as though such trivialities would inevitably cause more problems then are necessary. I'm not a game player, nor will I ever be, but is now perhaps as good of a time as any to start? I've stuck with the keep doing what you're doing idea and have heavily pondered the up a notch and saying something options, but I find myself tedious to do either. Then I think about playing hard to get. Would I even know what to do if started to play this game? It's one thing to ignore someone, but how long do you ignore and how does one act when the ignoring stops. Then I thought, does playing hard to get ever really work? Does anyone actually succeed in getting what he or she wants that way? I know for me personally, if the playing went on for too long, I think I would eventually give up, because I would find it not worth my time to chase what at the time seems unattainable. It’s in our human nature to desire what we can't have. That got me to thinking... who's to say I can't have it if I really want it? I want what I think I can have. If I've had it before, doesn't that make it all the more attainable? I think I can, I think I can, I think I can... But I should ignore her...? That's going to make her like me more? Odd... Supposedly, by playing hard to get, you're demonstrating your "value." I'm sorry, wouldn't being charming and available among other things show my "value?" Someone once said love isn't about the things you say, it’s about gestures. It's the little things, and little things are needed right? Not ignoring? Mystery and aloofness is a turn off for me. I want to see and feel the attraction from her. Persistence is a value for me. Showing and being shown a desire to have something is what works for me.
When it comes to food, most humans enjoy both comfort and trying new things; experiencing new flavors, sensations, overall experiences. The same can be said for dating; I've had nearly the last year to be single. I mingled and enjoyed my new flavors and sensations. Everything from casual dating, dates with random girls I just met a few hours before, sex on a fur rug, really bad sex and getting back into the game with girls that have potential. In the end, I enjoyed these new experiences, but I've had my fill, and I'm looking for my comfort food. In case you haven't noticed, I'm a bit of a romantic (if you haven't figured that out, you need to read some of my previous blogs). I like the feeling of being in a relationship; I love to make someone feel special and have them make me feel special in return. It's not even about the sex either, it’s the companionship that enjoy; that, I got your back kind of love! Not that I don't have that with some of my best friends, but that’s when it comes full circle...and well I do love me a naked woman... Who doesn't right? It's the companionship that makes life worth living, but having sex with that companion is what makes life special. Think for a moment about what it would be like to live a life without love and companionship...
D. H. Lawrence once said, "Those that go searching for love, only manifest their own loveless-ness. And the loveless never find love, only the loving find love. And they never have to seek for it." I have only been in love once, and I didn't go searching for it, it found me, and once again I find myself in position with a girl who just appeared. Could it be love? Who knows, but I'm not about to fuck it up by playing hard to get!
